Are you gorgeous enough for yourself?
I remember when I was a little girl! Even though I was living in a challenging and dysfunctional family and environment, I felt happy and life seemed magical for me! I was so excited to wake up each morning and was looking forward to upcoming day adventures! I felt my natural wellbeing and I felt beautiful inside and out. I felt good enough and I was happy with myself!
As I was growing up, I started to consider other people’s opinion more important than my own! And then all my suffering began. I gave my power away. My beauty, my worth, my value and happiness started to slowly depend on other people’s rating of me, their opinions of me, societies standard of beauty and normal. Suddenly I felt not valuable enough, beautiful enough, lovable enough and good enough the way I was. Other people told me and treated me in the way that gave me this message: I have to be different in order to be loved, to be pretty and to be valued and accepted!
Deep inside my heart and soul I knew this is NOT the truth about me and about anyone. But the voice within was very gentle and very subtle.I made the worse decision of my life. I stopped listening to my subtle but powerful inner voice and deep knowing of my worth, value and beauty and started to listen other people’s and our society opinions and standards.
From then on my identity depended on how other people perceived me. And they perceived me as not pretty enough, not lovable enough and I could not take it! I started my long, painful journey of making myself more lovable, prettier and more valuable. I should look differently, so I started to alter my appearance to look like the models and women in a magazines and societies standards of beauty.
I went on my first diet to look skinny! That day my 12 years journey of eating disorder and body image issues began. I was always on a diet trying to achieve impossible weight goals, just to end up in binge eating. The cycle of dieting and binging began. Sometimes I went to extremes, bulimic and anorexic behaviours. I added starving, fasting, detoxing, emotional eating, food addiction and compulsive overeating on top of it.
I so wanted to fit into the picture of the people who are lovable, wanted, adored, valued, accepted, pretty, gorgeous, sexy, belonged and happy! I was never able to achieve that! I failed! Luckily! That was the best failure I could ever experience!
I recovered 4 years ago and achieved complete eating freedom and slim body for life! I failed to fit into other people’s ideas of me and what beautiful and lovable is. I fell in love with myself again. With that subtle inner voice of my soul that I am whole and enough as I am. I started to listen to it again. It was telling me that I came here to be ME. And that everyone is here to be THEM. I TOOK MY POWER back!
Now, I am gorgeous enough for myself. After this detour of my heart, I came back to me, to that little beautiful, innocent and gorgeous girl that I always was and sharing this message with anyone who is on the DETOUR too.
Come back to yourself!
In this video, I shared the powerful process that can help you to get back into alignment with your gorgeousness again!This process is one of the many processes in my Eating and Body Freedom Community. You are so welcome to join it and use all the tools and processes there!